And I have not done any art. I can’t seem to leave the computer long enough. There’s always something to distract me, or that is more urgent. Kinda crazy. Video games are a huge distraction at the moment. Like, I’m not even playing because it’s fun. It’s just fulfilling this urge, this need to play. I feel mad guilty afterwards. It’s very perverse!
I have been trying to be more mindful about the video games, and while it’s not stopping me from playing, I am at least seeing how I am playing. And I’m definitely not a fan. The thought of getting rid of them makes me feel a bit of panic. It’s a strange feeling. Kinda like smoking. The urge to smoke was brutal, but I stopped, and the urge passed.
However, now I am wondering if I have simply substituted smoking with other things since I quit. Gonna have to think about that one.
Ah yeah I finished restoring my drafting table! So happy to have my huge workspace back. I have another 6 days off of work too…
Super stoked, bought a new table top for my very old PlanMaster desk. Going to have a ton of space to make a mess pretty soon
Found lots of excuses to not play with watercolor this past weekend. It’s very silly but I worry that it won’t be very good.. But like, how is it supposed to be any good if I don’t work it?
I need to remove distractions. The computer is a big one. SOO addicted. I think actually unplugging the damn things would help start the withdrawal and recovery process haha.